Any teens ttc? 18-19?

 Im 18 and trying to conceive baby number 1 after I wen through a termination at the age of 13. I was so very young but the older I get the more I understand what I went through and it's made me want a baby so bad. I have been trying to conceive for 11 long months, doing as much as I can and I feel like a failure, I need teens my age who are going through the same thing. I want to create a thread for people who will post as much as they can and tell me about their road ttc. I want to see everyone eventually posting pics of their bfps in there to give me hope! I was so positive yesterday but now it's beginning to really get me down and I just want to curl up and cry. I'm home alone tonight so I feel even worse without comfort. I have work early and I can't sleep because it's in my mind. I feel like in on such an emotional roller coaster. I feel awful for anyone who has been ttc for years and it's not happened. It's just so emotional. I'm on cd5 now and all I want is to receive my bfp this cycle but my doubts are very muh there. I fact I've convinced myself I can't get pregnant. Anyone else in the same boat? :(