I feel stupid

I feel stupid from crying

But This is suppose to be my month and now ion know i doubt it.

My SO barely has anytime this. Cycle

We usually have sex like everyday. I think ive only had sex 4 times this month

Besides that i just miss him period.

He works mon-saturday from 5am and makes it home around 7pm but still then he is a musician and his music as been very demanding this month as well he might shower then leave right back out. Like today after work he has a video shot. It prob wont be til like 2am til he comes home. So 5am to 2am tommro i pose to be with out my husband.

I sound so clingy 😭😭😭

I know but he is all i have...i swear i usually dont complain but its been like this for two weeks now. I miss him.

No my SO is a good man i shouldbt complain about him being out because he might "hang" 4-5 a month and i know its selfish that im crying and i just want him home.

Ive been going to sleep like fuckin Beyonce and the nights he make it home early he is to tired to even eat. Let alone touch me

I just miss my best friend so much as much as the sex is important i dont even care i just want some attention a hug to be held. I miss his company

Sorry if i sound silly. Ive told him this but i seem to be "over reacting" ( which with depression anxitey and bipolar i seem to do) so if just shut up and tried this fake smile and cry in the dark

I just want my husband😭😭😭