Well, i was married to my ex husband for 9 years and we have 2 kids together. But there was always fight at home for petty things and he used to beat me a lot. But he always used to give us full attention in terms of food and leisure. We did not lack of anything in that category. One fine day i met my current husband when i was still in my previous mariage, we had an affair and he asked me to leave the father of my chidlren because of his violence. So i took decision to divorce. Since the house and car were mine. He had to leave everything and go including the kids. He is not even from my country. He is away and very far from us now. But i miss him a lot. I cry everyday thinking that he was the only man i've ever fallen in love with.

Any kind words from you ladies? How do i get out of this situation. How do i remove his thoughts from my mind? I feel soooooo guilty that i did this to him. I feel like i've snatched everything from him and he's left with nothing. He contributed in the house and looked after us but had only this abusive behaviour and he was unfaithful.

Now i have small problems with my current husband. He is with us but kind of selfish. He is not abusive but thinks only about himself. My children do not count for him. So this hurts me and make me think about their father. I feel like calling him back sometimes. If i could have given him a last chance!

I just want a peace of mind. I want to live my life without this guilt.