Is it wrong I want to get spoiled

Now when I say spoiled, I do mean getting gifts, but I also mean by getting more attention, and having better communication. I just want to be spoiled.. like I feel like I'm not, and I'm not saying I could do a lot better, because yeah, I probably could find someone that would shower me w/ gifts, but that person and I wouldn't have the same connection me and my boyfriend have. Idk how to tell him that I want to be spoiled.. and tbh, I'm not really the type to want to get spoiled... I'm the "independent" type of person, and it literally kills me because I end up cutting off a lot of people because I always say that I don't need people to give me anything.. but like I wish I could have some gifts a little.. like I don't really know how to explain this... its so irritating that I can't figure out what to do.