I called up my mum and told her how I was feeling and the pain, she told me to time the cramping. So I done that and they weren't coming often enough. I went for another wee and I saw I was starting to bleed. So I went into our bedroom and I woke my partner up and told him I'm going to the hospital as I was in pain and bleeding. He got straight up, called up consultant led and they said to come down. So, we got to triage, what a bloody long wait that was!! I was in absolute agony at this point and I wanted some pain killers, I also just wanted to go for a poo, but with other women and partners in the waiting room & one toilet I couldn't do it. 

I then went outside for fresh air with my partner and had the worst belly ache. So I rushed to the nearest toilet I could find. I had to go....

So we went back inside and one of the midwives called my name and set me up on a monitor for baby's heartbeat and contractions. 

I don't know how but I was laughing throughout it because my partner thinks he's some kind of comedian. 

He calls up my mum to let her know what's going on and she comes down, we were there for 5 hours until they examined me, told me I was 2cm but not fully effaced and that the blood was my show. So they told me to go home, sleep, eat, take some tablets and a hot bath and if it continues and gets worse to come back down. 

So I did that, we went back to my mums and I've never seen my sisters look at me with so much worry(they're younger than me) because of the pain I was in. At around 7:30 my partner suggested we walked around the block, so we done that 3 times and went back to my mums. 

I decided we went back to ours for comfort, nothing like being in the comfort of your own home when you're in pain. But in the end we ended up going to his mums as she lives nearer to the hospital, she made me a cup of tea and started timing my contractions, they would vary, 2 minutes, 3,5,8. So we went back home. 

At around 11:30pm I was in agony, so we went back to the hospital & I was taken to midwife led, and was examined, this time I was still 2cm but fully effaced...so the midwife done a sweep for me to get things going. 

As I got off of the bed and put my underwear on something fell out of me and down my leg...it was my mucus plug, so my partner let the midwife know as I felt so embarrassed that it happened on the floor, she didn't seem bothered!! I was told again go home and come back if anything happens, as we were leaving she said I'll see you in half hour! Joking around. 

But she was not wrong, I tried having a hot bath with candles & my partner sat with me but it didn't work. So I called up and said look, I'm in agony, I'm in so much pain I want a section. 

I was told to go down, so we did. I got seen to within minutes & monitored again, I was given codiene and paracetamol to help with my contractions. 

The lady said around 3am I'm going to go upto the ward and they'll look after me. So I went up there and they told me to rest and get some sleep...how the heck could I sleep with the worst pains and other women surrounding me also in labour in pain?!? 

I couldn't and I didn't, me and my partner were up all night, I had my tens machine everytime I had a contraction I'd put it right up on boost and it helped a lot! It got to 9am and I was in so much pain, my partner got me more paracetamol and called my mum again. So my mum came down and I told my partner to go home and get some rest as he hadn't had any for 2 nights. So he left at about 9:30, and at around 10am a midwife and consultant came into me and asked if They could examine me, so I said yes, my mum holding my hand as they did. 

The consultant sat up and said, right....you're 8-9cm so you're ready to go downstairs and you'll be having your baby soon...I was like you what? I wanted an epidural, and I wanted it right there!! My mum was telling me how proud she was of me to be at almost 9cm with no pain relief but a few tablets. I also wanted morphine but I didn't get it. 

So my mum called my partner who had just got home and told him everything, so he came back down after he showered and changed. 

I was wheeled down into my delievery room and that's when it all seemed so real, I was about to have a baby. 

My midwife was the most loveliest woman I had ever met that worked in a hospital. She was so kind and caring. 

She got me set up, asked me questions etc and got me onto the bed. She asked if I wanted gas and air and I said no I wanted an epidural, she said ok, I'll find out about one, might be a wait but I'll do my hardest. 

So about 20 minutes and another doctor came in ready to give me an epidural, but the midwife wanted to examine me first, and I was almost fully dilated. She said she didn't want to give me the epidural because she didn't want to slow down my labour for me, but she put the injection into my hand to get ready anyway. 

Then I remember laying on the bed, getting a contraction & I started saying I feel a pressure, there's pressure, and pop...my waters had broke! Went everywhere, all over my back, my socks, the bed was soaked, dropping to the floor. So after they cleared it up and me, she asked if I needed a wee, because my cervix wasn't as thin as she needed it for baby to come, I said I dunno I'll try, so I got up, slowly, walked to the loo and tried but nothing. 

So I went back out & ended up standing, and I got real bad contractions followed by more of my waters, it was like a waterfall, just kept coming and coming. So more cleaning!! 

I went down to the delivery room around 10:50, it was around 12:48 my waters broke, at 2pm she had to help me wee, I didn't feel it, I had to ask her if I was weeing and she laughed and said yes. After all that, I had the worst contraction and felt like I needed to push, my partner and mum told me to take the gas n air. I refused, again. 

It got to about 2:20 and I was getting tired, I kept nodding off to sleep but kept waking up with awful contractions, at one point I woke up screaming because I could feel something coming, so I pushed, my partner looked so upset that he couldn't take the pain away, so I then took the gas and air. My partner was so so tired and I hated seeing how tired he was, he told my mum he was going to get a drink, like a red bull, this was at 2:47. The midwife said he had time as baby would be about another hour. 

She was wrong....all I remember is feeling blacked out, pushing, hearing a midwife say there's a head, there's a head, then I remember having about 6 midwives around me, telling me to lift my knees back and to take one big push, I was so high I don't know how I managed. But I done it. My partner came running in because he heard the alarm and saw the midwives running into my room, and he came into the room with our beautiful daughter on my chest. 

I didn't know she had been born, I was so off my face it took my mum, midwives and my partner to tell me, so I started crying asking if she was ok and she was perfect. 

I have never loved someone so much in my life ❤️