Grumpy Gus (Ranting "adult" child)

I'm one of those people that if I stop and actually pay attention to whatever pain is reaching a point that it stands out from the rest it'll feel worse and worse until I feel like crying. I know that's totally psychological but it's infuriating! "Just don't think about it" isn't really an option since I'm curious if I hurt myself somehow because I stay pretty zoned out- can't explain that. And I get weird smells that definitely aren't around me. Like cigarette smoke! No one in this house smokes, none of the windows are open, none of us even like to be around smokers so it's kept to a minimum. I'm smelling it right now and my legs hurt so bad I'd like to just chop them off! Any volunteers feel like letting off some anger with a chainsaw? (Kidding)