Hate comparing myself to others..

Kinda need to vent i guess. I hate looking at others and comparing what they have that i dont. Like most girls have clear skin, nice bodies, everything.. it sucks. Maybe its because ill finally see my boyfriend. Its been so long since i felt someones touch, hugs, kisses, ect. Ive never cuddled anyone, never done anything sexual, havent done anything in 4 years. Im nervous its making me crazy cx. I just want it to go okay and i dont want to make myself look like a fool /).(\.