crying it out

kasey
Feeling like a horrible mommy. As I sit here typing this, my little one who is 9 months old just fell asleep for her nap in her pack n play after the first time of trying the cry it out method. 
I usually hold her, feed her, and she falls asleep on me for her naps and I'll either just hold her or put her down in her chair. When it comes down to bedtime at night, I lay in bed with her until she falls asleep and then transfer her to her pack n play. 
Yes, I've been babying her but they are only babies once and it kills me to hear her cry. 
After talking to my husband this morning, he told me that I'm just making it harder on my self and I will be doomed when the next baby comes in two months if I don't get her to fall asleep without me. 
So I finally gave in when it came to her first nap this morning. She cried and I went in and rubbed her back and told her I'm here and that it's nap time. As soon as I walked out, she cried even more. I waited longer and she was still crying and again I went in and told her that it's okay but it's nap time and rubbed her tummy. 
This went on for about a half an hour! She wasn't having it. 
She didn't finish her bottle before I put her in the crib so o gave it to her and she went out like a light. Of course, I went in and removed the bottle. I have read that I shouldn't give her bottle on the crib but I know my babies cries and that's exactly what she wanted! 
Now I sit her feeling ashamed that I just let her cry so much.. but I know in the LONG run it will benefit me and cause me less stress when the other baby comes! 😩