Anybody out there that wants to have a baby but can't for health issues?

Ok so, I have been married for a year to my best friend, and yet we went through so much this year. Both our best friends have new babies born this year, I on the other hand found out I had a hole in my heart that was affecting me, had to quit my job, got an open heart surgery on 9/27/2016, lost my first home with my husband (due to not having enough money by himself for all our bills, medicine etc.. like we had enough but just to get by and it was even more so stressing) I don't have my fur baby with me because 1. I'm berly getting back more mobility, 2. Where we live they don't accept pets, and 3. I really want to be a mother sooo badly and can't because they recommend to wait at least a year or so to try to conceive. 

So there, those are the main important things that have drived me to not being able to sleep as much. 

I know I'm in no great position to be a mother right now, and that I can take this time to get a career not just another job. In other words get my life together again, but nonetheless, it hurts. It hurts so much to want things to be different and to want something so bad because you know you'll love motherhood and your baby like no other but it's prohibited 🚫 I love kids, heck I'm the go to babysitter for family and friends and yet it breaks my heart when someone says "wow you're really good w/ babies, I bet you'll be a great mom" "when are you planning to have one of your own?" 😪 

Can anyone relate to anything I said? Lol sorry if it's too long... 

 I'll appreciate any response, thanks! ☺️