I just don't get it

Sharon
I'm POAS on Monday that's when AF is due I check my cervix daily and CM I know sometimes you can't go off of that or it's not reliable. I had a horrible miscarriage in May and we are TTC and I have come to learn my body more and more. I notice this whole week my cervix has felt higher and tonight finally more closed and I had a long line of stretchy creamy milky colored CM (sorry tmi I know) usually before AF my cervix is low and and dry like a desert. I don't want to solely go off of this and POAS and it be negative. I am SO over these negatives. They hurt and suck and are just discouraging. I have been more tired this last week like I sleep all night and wake up tired and have horrible heart burn and burps and food taste off or more sour Or sweet and I get cramps but not like AF cramps they don't last very long or feel intense. I'm trying to stay positive but it's hard. I just want insight or a story or some insight! My boobs don't hurt nor do my nipples they haven't hurt since after my MC they don't even hurt before or on my period. I track everything. I feel like I'm going crazy. I'm 13 dpo. Can anyone just help or give me some insight. Anyone going through this? I want to cry. I don't know what to think.