Addiction.... relapse.

So I'm on the verge of a relapse.. I've never delt with this before. I don't know how to over come it. I've been clean for almost 5 years, quit cold turkey. I was addicted to pills like vicodin, percs, lortab ect. I'm just under so much stress right now with an uncertain divorce and family drama, and I have no place to vent.

I normally smoke marijuana for my depression/anxiety but I couldn't take it with me on vacation and my anxiety is through the roof also. I just don't know what to do. My friend ,who is the only one I trust that knows my past with drugs, is probably passed out right now and not answering their phone and I'm not in the same state right now so it's not like I can just run to them.

Sorry if this is in the wrong category I didn't know where to post this