wedding...?

Mattie
Okay so we're not engaged yet but we talk about getting married all the time. We have a 10 month old and I'm not sure when we will ever get engaged. Anyways, now that a whole bunch of crap has went down between me and his family, and then with us having a kid. I don't know if I even want a wedding. 😔 I don't even want a ring or anything anymore. Just go sign a paper and get it over with I guess. 
As a child I dreamed of this HUGE wedding, with a beautiful ball gown dress and for everything to be amazing. Now, just because of everything that's went wrong so far, I don't even care anymore. We couldn't afford anything anyways. 
Sorry, just had to vent. In my feelings right now. 😔😔