Having a small breakdown probably due to the hormones. I'm due tommorow and even though everyone keeps telling me to "walk the baby out" I've been so inactive. I have shooting back pain and I get tired so easily. Anyway, for a while now I've been saying I was excited to go Black Friday shopping and my boyfriend wasn't totally on board. He thought I would be too tired or too full and change my mind haha but anyway today he says "so you still wanna go shopping tonight?". And of course I do, I go every year, I love how the stores are just starting to decorate and for some reason it always makes me really happy even if I don't buy anything. Then around mid day I find out he's invited all his friends to go and now it's turned into a boys activity. I just wanted to go out for an hour and walk around a little and have some time with him before baby comes since she's literally due tommorow! I thought it could be the last time we went out for a while since we'll be so busy with baby. But now he turns it into a boys trip and honestly I can't keep up with them while I'm 40 weeks pregnant. So I told my boyfriend I didn't want to go anymore and now I've just been laying in bed crying for the past two hours because my plan was ruined and I have horrible anxiety so ill just be worrying about him for the rest of the night since thanksgiving is such a bad night to drive with all the drunk people on the road. Sorry the rant, I just wanted to vent somewhere 😞 I really hope my baby comes soon so I can feel normal again.