Af arrived with a vengeance

And she's here, I really just don't know how to cope 😢 Clomid pushed my cycle back by almost a week. The symptoms weren't the normal  fake pregnancy symptoms 😔 they were wellllll beyond ! They were on 10 compared to every other month. I thought this was my month finally, but something in the back of my mind just kept telling me yeah right 😞 it's like my spirit is telling me I'm not able to be a mother physically or mentally, I'm literally hurt down to my core 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢