Feeling nasty after sex?

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Okay so I'm putting this on anonymous because of how embarrassed I am by how I feel. I want to start out by saying I'm a Christian, and I'm not sure if that may have something to do with it or if it's just the way my mind works. First off, I've been with my half for 4 years and we just got married last summer. We had sex before marriage and I felt so disgusting and guilty (it happened more then once) finally I told him I didn't want to feel the way I did. I just felt dirty and wanted to cover up and run away so we stopped and I think I felt that way because I knew I was doing wrong (against my religion) so I felt the guilt. Now that we're are married, I'm 24 weeks pregnant. We have sex frequently but I still feel disgusting and get that feeling like I want to hide. I don't want to be touched afterwards, I seriously just want to cry. We're very open about are sex life and we're comfortable talking about it so I've told him how I felt, I just can't think of anything to stop feeling this way. Any advice?

Edit: I want to add that I was sexually abused twice in my life by two different men. I'm not very affected by it though. I had counseling but told my mom that I didn't need it when I was younger because I just wasn't that upset by the situations. I just wanted to stop talking about them, and try to let it go. Could this be a factor?

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Counseling? That's not normal.

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Sex counseling.... Totally not normal to wanna hide or cry during sex... I hope things get better for you 💘

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I just read an article about this the other day. It affected a couples marriage to the point that they divorced in 1 year. This is such a fixable situation with therapy and counseling. 
I'm sorry you went through abuse when you were younger but you do need therapy and counseling right now. Don't take this lightly because otherwise you will feel like this for many years to come without any solution to it.

Go talk to someone. Make an appointment with a doctor.

Religion does have something to do with this too but the major issue here is your history of abuse.

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Seek therapy. That would be my biggest advice. I too was sexually abused for 7 years as a child. It definitely has changed my attitude towards intimacy and unfortunately it will always be somewhat tainted. Some days are better then others. But therapy saved my life. I also am a religious person, had sex with my husband prior to marriage, and felt guilty about it every time. Now we are married and that guilt has gone away. It's just the past sexual abuse that will forever make our sex life... well, interesting, for lack of a better word. I would encourage building a relationship with your husband where he understands your feelings towards the situation.  There are certain times when my husband will want to be intimate and I'm feeling extra anxious that day, and I know that being intimate will bring back old feelings. He respects that, and he waits. It's not always easy. Or fun. But he respects me. So long story short, having been in your shoes, I would strongly advise a good therapist. You'd be surprised by what resentment you may hold towards sex because of what has happened.

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I read about halfway and thought to myself that she has been sexually abused, even if she can't remember it happening. Then I read the rest and saw where you actually were. I think it is affecting you, deeply. You should seek counseling. I think you are just suppressing your emotions about what happened and it's affecting you even if you think it has nothing to do with it. If you do start counseling then I would start from the beginning, from the assaults. Good luck and I'm really sorry about what has happened in your past.

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I'm with everyone. Counseling would probably be best. Growing up very religious, I understand where you could be feeling the guilt, on top of that you also have a history. Better to get help so you can be healthy for yourself, your husband, and your child.

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