38+5. Due 12.6.16

I cried myself to sleep last night because every movement baby made felt like my insides were being ripped out. My back is killing me, along with sciatic pain, and heaven forbid I go to the bathroom and push, cause then I wanna puke.

I started losing my mucus plug last week, was pink, but not very much. Then this evening I lost what I'm assuming was the rest of it because there was a TON of mucus. Just pale yellow/white/clear though. No pink.

I wanna go in and get checked so bad, because I just can't physically CAN'T do it anymore. I feel exhausted and just defeated. Full on postpartum depression setting in I think. I feel like I just can't do this anymore. I want baby out.