ISO cycle buddy! :)

Hi my name is Lindsay! I've been with my fiancé for 5 years now I keep saying 4 but this month was our 5! :) we have been TTC for about 3-4 years now. I've tried to keep documentation on everything but I eventually stop, I go back and forth, I will track and then I won't in hopes that maybe if I will forget about it, it will just happen, well it hasn't and I think it's time to do something more. I'm always so depressed and discouraged every single month. I'm planning on buying pre-seed in hopes of help as well as going to the doctor in January, I would like a cycle buddy to help me through the process, one that knows of the long and horrible process, one with ideas, advice, and information :) thank you!