I'm scared

Scarlett
When I was nine years old my mom was pregnant with her second kid but during birth there were some problems n he died 2 months after. My family found out that my mom had a blood clotting disorder which caused a clot in the placenta which is why my brother died this also means my mom runs high health risks.. but 5 years ago my mom had another kid Phoenix he is strong and healthy because my mom knew what medicine was necessary to keep him strong during the pregnancy just recently I got blood work done that tested to see if I have what my mom has these test will determine if I can take the pill if I need special medicine to be able to have a healthy baby in the the future and I'm going in Thursday to find out and I am extremely nervous 
A pic of me n my little brother for you guys as well