Does birth control help with baby fever? 😅

My boyfriend and I see each other every month and a half or so (LDR) and obvs have sex when together, using pullout method. I'm sooo ready for a baby, he isn't, but would be pleased/ happy if we ended up with one. 
Well my issue is that this whole ~baby fever~ is waaay worse than I'd like to admit. I cry over my barren uterus every time I have my period, and a few times in between. (Rant: he seriously just does not understand this! He told me to get a puppy {which I already tried lol} 🙄) No emotional support from him, go figure. 
So every time we have sex, if I don't have my period I take a test two weeks later (and cry myself to sleep, depressing I know). Honestly I'm tired of the heartbreak from negatives or bleeding. I guess I'm hoping birth control, and knowing there is no possibility of pregnancy, will help me temporarily give up on this dream and desire to have a baby. Does this sound ridiculous? I've never been on birth control but I know it effects your emotions and all. 
Also, would I be taking it for the wrong reasons? Obviously I want a baby, andwould be using BC to help me lose hope. Sounds rough, but that's what it is. 
Seriously ladies, I'd listen to any voice of reason or reassurance. ❤️

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