Trying to bond

Hi I'm writing this anonymously for I feel awful and feel like I will get judge.

When I was pregnant I have not once felt connected to my child. People told 'oh it will change.' 'Oh it gets better.' 'Give it some time.'

My child is now 5 weeks and I don't feel any closer to her. She is crazy about dad, but when I hold my child, I feel nothing... My child just looks at me with a blank stare and I try and TRY to make her smile... But she just gives me a babble and looks off somewhere else the rest of the time... I feel like sh*t, yes I am going to talk to my Dr about this depression.. I'm not sad I just feel empty and alone... It sucks.. I don't like to take of her because I feel like she hates me (her dad works night shifts).. Its stressful.. I'm sorry I had to vent or I'll start crying again.. Thanks for your time..