I've never been kissed

So I've been in and out of a relationship with the same guy and this last time we broke up we spent a good year apart and during that year I discovered a lot about me like the fact that I'm bi and I also changed religions. Before when we were dating I was completely against premarital sex and even kissing freaked me out and now I'm the maserbating machine and don't give a fuck about having sex before marriage. And since we've gotten back together I've discovered he's changed we've completely switched rolls and I'm ok with that but like I want him to kiss me I want my first kiss and I want it to be with him. I love him so much and I want him to hold my hand and hold me when I have cramps and show me affection in public. What should I do? And how would you girls talk to your boo if you were in this situation?