Tired of TTC

I'm getting frustrated, since my ectopic which I had surgery for on the 31st of January which lost me my left tube we've been trying it's May AF is due in 5 days and I'm just very discouraged I feel like giving up letting go of my partner so he can go find a woman who can give him children he really wants one. I got excited this month a lady I didn't know asked me if I was pregnant cuz my eyeballs were soo white. And my face looks round. Took a test today although it was midday I got BFN which I guessed would happen anyway. I'm just tired of constantly checking and trying to detect symptoms all the planning it's just soo much