beyond tired of the same thing

I'm so tired of waking up to pee on a stick to see if I'm ovulating, taking prenatal Vitamins when I still have no baby , after sex just laying their with my legs in the air, then the 2ww     Ends with negative test and 7 days of af if I knew it was gunna be this hard I would have started trying a lot sooner being in my 20ts the doctors just wanna Waite and see if I can do it own my own to "gain weight" "sleep more " "stop trying " " don't get stressed" like that's possible I'm so close to snatching one of these ungrateful teens baby who is neglected in the first place