so over it

TTC is the most stressful thing going on in my life right now. I told myself that I wasn't going to test until I've missed AF (due the 7th). I had these dreams last night about me taking over 10 pregnancy test that all came back positive. I kept having these dreams all night. I even got up and used the restroom and went back to sleep and the dream picked up where it left off 🙄 low and behold I wake up at 7am still half sleep to go pee on this stick just to get a BIG FAT NEGATIVE!! Even though I still have some time for AF to show I KNOW I'm out this month. I want this so bad that I don't even know how to actually STOP trying 😪😪😪😪😪😪