Just need a break

Kathy
I left a 14 year domestic violence relationship two years ago had four children who I love and adore. Met a wonderful man now we are trying for a baby. It will be his first. Im due on my period on the 5th of December. I feel like I have symptoms of early pregnancy I'm 1000% sure. Took a test Friday as Glow told me too it was a BFN. Took another one today it a BFN. So maybe it's all in my head I'm so upset I know I'm being silly. What should I do please some advice