I never thought this would be my life. I married my wonderful husband 4 and a half years ago, we decided to wait to have a baby. And here we are, a year and a half later, still not pregnant. I never thought my life would be so full of appointments at the fertility specialist, speculums, and needles. I never thought my life could be so full of the emptiness my womb and arms feel without a baby. I never though my life could be full of despair for something I don't even have. I never thought infertility would be my life, my label. I'm so tired of seeing negative tests. Sorry for whining guys, it's been a bad week.