I badly missing my ex, fiancee or my future hubby? Idk...

All i know is I REALLY MISS HIM

and still

I LOVE HIM the same...

We broke up almost 7 mos this coming 10th of Dec...

I just can't stop thinking and loving him and I know 101% he still feels the same. We didn't talk but we feel it and we see it in our actions like crazy... Blocking and unblocking again and again. If he blocked me I unblocked him if I blocked him he unblocked me and there are a lot of signs and until now he kept on shouting my name on the crowd and I do the same. The question is.. What are we doing? All circles know about us that we are both moving on but... Really? Urghhh! And the worst was like he is always inside of me, he is literally on my cells, nerves, blood and I feel burning inside 😂😄😅💔 and I don't know what to do? Controlling myself badly.