I've put on so much weight and I'm huge 😢 it sounds so stupid but I get so upset when my partner jokes about liking other people's bodies and skinnier girls.. I know he doesn't mean it but it hurts to the point where I feel like I just want a quick fix.. I tried that years ago as a teen and it didn't go well and I know it doesn't last..

I struggle with clothes because I hate when a top is too short or the wind blows it and it clings to me, things looking too tight when I stand or sit, when I buy clothes and have to look in the back of racks because that's where the bigger sizes are, when I take a jacket off and my top has somehow moved up above my trousers and showing my tummy (I pull my trousers up really high so when I sit, it makes it look like I have a huge crease in my gut) and I even hate having sex completely naked as I look horrendous, I would love to be adventurous and record ourselves having sex but I just obsess over these things and no matter how many times my partner says he loves me and how I look.. I can't help but feel disgusting and gross and feel so jealous and uncomfortable when I see other women.. I don't even think I have the will power to lose my disgustingness.. Please help, I would love some tips because I want to lose weight in the hopes that it will help me conceive and feel better about myself 😕