failure

I feel like a failure every Single night. Putting my daughter to bed takes over an hour, sometimes two. She needs to be rocked and fed. Usually twice. And she wakes up every hour or two. She doesn't sleep in her crib but either with us or on a mattress next to our bed... I'm a against cry it out and I believe it's healthy to cosleep but the whole process is so labour intensive and she won't stay asleep!! I know it will end one day but I can't help but feel defeated every night like I'm doing something wrong. Is anyone else living this??