i need to vent out

I hate this it sucks it really does that my dad is never willing to buy me anything yes I'm old enough I live with my parents I don't work I do to school and my brother older than me gets whatever he wants I need to have my own money to buy me whatever I want I sometimes babysit or whatever for about$20 to get money I lend my parents money at times but they don't pay it back I don't mind since I live with them but it sucks cause if I need pads deodorant or whatever I need my dad never buys it for me I want to work but my dad says no since I'm in college and does not want me to distract myself I know I won't and i don't know how to drive cause no one has teached me &, I can't get anywhere by myself I know a little but I don't have a license this sucks I wish I can learn to drive so I can work get me an apartment cause I can't deal with this whatever he says has to be done 😭😭😭😭😭