when is it my turn

My due date is today but no sign of labor. 
My cousin who was due 2 weeks after me gave birth last week on Saturday 
And my friend who was due 3 weeks after me is in the hospital and they are inducing her tomorrow.
I'm doing this alone and it's to much for me already. 
I'm emotionally and physically drained. 
I'm a first time mom and will be induced on Monday and I have a non stress test appointment on Thursday. 
Morning sickness and heartburn haven't gone away. 
I'm crying almost everyday because I don't think I can do it on my own. Especially when everyone I know who is pregnant has their boyfriend or husband with them. 
All I can think about is him asking me, "mommy where is daddy?" How am I supposed to respond to that? 
And the so called father of my child is having another son who is due next week but plans on being there for him but not for mine. 
I'm just not emotionally ready