mum I should be afraid to talk about my drug addiction or sex life...

A daughter should not feel the fear pledged in their hearts that their mother will not accept them if they tell them something they've done, whether it's right or wrong. 

A mothers intent shouldn't be anything more than caring.. and understanding.

The worst thing a mother could do is push their child away when they believe they did something wrong.

Turning a left cheek, or a blind eye won't change the problems the mother has to face sooner or later, rather, the children will become more withdrawal and discrete. 

Dear mum,

Out of everything, I know you love me. I know you've tried your hardest to raise me with manners, respect and honour.

Although, sometimes, actually all the time.. I feel like you avoid to talk to me when I need you most...

When I need your love, your compassion, when I need you to understand me..

I know you tell me that you understand, but It's obvious that you aren't listening.

When I needed you, you turned your cheek and never turned back. You left me to the wolves. You EXPECTED me to climb back on my feet and find my own way out of my struggles, yet you set out rules for my life.

Maybe I never understood you? Maybe I never will? But I do know that you knew what was going on with me.

The withdrawal, the lies, the scams, the depression.

I showed all the signs that I needed my mama to listen to me... but I was left in the dark, covered in spider webs..

I should not have to fear telling you that I turned to drugs because I could not overcome my depression, I should not have to fear that you would not accept me because I had and still have sex.

I want you to understand me... I  want you to love me...

But mama, why can't you hear me?