I just need some advice...

So a couple years back I was in an extremely abusive (physical and emotional) relationship. I was with him for about a year, called the cops 3 times and was left with anxiety, depression, and ptsd from several rape attempts. I had tried to fix it but I finally listened to good advice and left. Now a couple years later I'm with the love of my life and soon to be husband, and I don't know why but I keep feeling like I'm pushing him away, I get anxious about stuff that I know will never happen, or I have nightmares and I wake up crying. My sweetheart has been extremely patient and loving but I want to know if there's maybe some advice from people who've been in my shoes. (And yes, I'm going to therapy and it's been really helpful so far)

Thanks guys, also ya'll are awesome love you! ❤