I recently had a miscarriage right after thanksgiving. It's been extremely difficult because my fiancé travels for work a lot so he hasn't been home since. I've been trying to stay busy to keep my mind off of everything but it's impossible. Everywhere I look I see ladies with babies, beautiful baby bumps, or adorable announcement pictures. Several women I work with are pregnant so I can't seem to get away from it even at the office. Nobody I work with knew I was pregnant because we wanted to wait until after the first trimester was over (I'm glad we waited). I went to the doctor for my follow up and she totally dismissed me. It broke my heart. I explained what had happened (just moved so new doctor) and the symptoms I've been having since. Mainly nauseau, cramps, heartburn, and headaches. She said all she could do was give me pills for each symptom but nothing else could be done. Her final words before she left the room were "I can make a counselor recommendation if you need it but you weren't really pregnant that long." I was at a loss for words. No I wasn't pregnant long but I loved that tomato seed more than life. And now it's gone. It's life will never be more than an idea in my head. I sit and listen to the women in my office discuss ultrasounds, names, gender hopes, and all those amazing things that come with a baby...and try not to cry. All I can think about is how I should be talking about those same things. I should be going to my appointment next week. But I'm not and my heart just breaks. I just need some support.