I just found out that I am pregnant with my third baby. I'm anxious and nervous and excited all at once. Three years ago I had an ectopic pregnancy that ruptured. I was bleeding internally and almost died. I felt so betrayed by my own body. Now I'm 38 years old and I am worried about starting all over again--I have two sons;  ages 12 and 6! I've told a few close friends but other than my husband no one in my family knows. I'm not ready to tell them yet. I honestly thought that I couldn't have anymore children after my last pregnancy. I was told that I had polycystic ovary syndrome and actually took clomid to conceive my second child. My plan is to wait until after the holidays before I even try and schedule my first appointment. I'm a medical lab tech so I'm familiar with the hcg hormone levels( I perform lab tests daily) and I've checked mine twice already to make sure that they are increasing properly. I'm trying to just let nature take its course and relax and try to regain my trust in my own body to do what it's supposed to do.