Am I wrong? What can I do?

So after 5 years I have been cheated on, lied to and told that he will change. I hear all the time things never change but then there is that one person it works out for. What is so wrong with me? He says hurtful things when I say how I feel. I mean I have been working on my communication and I thought I was doing well. Obviously not. I have been left feeling alone in my own house and life. I feel like I have lost myself in my work, my home life and that fact that I don't have his support when I thought I did. I kicked him out for the night and this is not the first time. He would rather spend time and money in drinking than making me feel wanted and loved. He would rather talk to tottering girls that fond out why I have been distant. Is this truly what men are these days? This is me a hard working nurse. Help me out ladies.