I feel disconnected to my baby. Like I don't like him. I hate him. He has colic he cried all day and night. He's held up his head at birth he jumps out your arms hr rolls all over everywhere. I think he gets bored easily too I have to constantly do new things to keep him entertained. I'm doing this all by myself. When u say he cries it's at least 6 hrs a day of screaming bloody murder. He hits and scratches when I won't pick him up he pounds his legs in his swing. Everytime i eat he wakes up. He won't sleep in his crib, he doesn't like sitting still, and he just doesn't want anyone else but me. I am all tapped out. No one will go anywhere with me because he screams. I HATE HIM and I'm not cut out to be his mother. Postpartum depression yes I have it. Don't judge me.