young mom working her ass off.

I am 18 I have a 4 week old baby. I am finishing up my high school online, just got a part time job for the new year, have another part time job that I do from home selling Avon. I take care of the baby every day all day. Day in and day out. When I start my new job in January I will be working 5 hour shifts than starting February I'll be working full time getting 40 hours a week at minimum wage. I'm saving to buy us a house and support our family. I really wish I could be a stay at him mommy but I had to step up because my fiancé put us 2000 dollars in debt because he decided he didn't want to work minimum wage for 3 months till he could find a job that payed better now he is making 19 dollars an hour which isn't bad. But he is now paying off his ruck and everything else well I help. I have to leave my baby girl to work when she is only a month and a few weeks old which sucks. He never helps with her he just comes home and stairs at his phone. But he keeps trying to buy me gifts with money he doesn't have well I'm working my ass off over here trying to start my life. I feel like I'm not trying hard enough on top of this I Breast feed. So try pumping and working and juggling all of this. Yet I still feel like I'm not trying hard enough