can't do this anymore

I swear I can't do this. Pregnancy has been a nightmare for me since weeks and now I am 14 weeks. I'm so sick every single second my eyes are open. I cry everyday wishing and praying to feel better. I miss my life. I never thought it would be this hard. My anxiety is through the roof I have panic attacks regularly now. How is this normal???? I miss being able to leave my house without panicking I'll be sick. I miss loving my fiancé like I used to. Now my relationship is a mess. Ugh someone please give me some positivity I'm so down. 😞