fat ? or thick ?

Amanda • Momma to a lil boy. Engaged to my amazing boyfriend. Living life an setting goals
For years I've had really bad self image issues. My mom would tell me I had gained to much weight An poke my tummy. I'd starve my self An make my self get sick. The guy I'm dating has been helping me to eat better. But I feel as if I've gotten fat An gross. I could really use some feed back