thinking

I cant sleep because i think alot since nothing seems to work out in my life . Im strong but cant take it anymore. I getting weak.so many things r bothering me like
1. I am ttc for about 3mnths now and hoping for a christmas miracle.
2. I live with my husbands fam and my mil is such a pain.
3. My Husbands job is at stake.
4. We r planning to move out but somehow my husband blames me for seperating him from his parents but all i want his a life with him and some privacy . 
Any thoughts???