Just Miserable

Kai
I am at about 6 weeks, and have been having awful morning sickness for the past couple weeks. 
I'm having really mixed feelings about this pregnancy because we weren't really TTC but this baby just demanded to come through. 
On a mental level I didn't really want another baby. My kids are 10 and 7 and I feel like I've just recently regained so much freedom. We had plans to sail across the Atlantic this year or next.... 
In addition I've been dealing with chronic hives for the past 15 years, which doesn't just affect my skin but has been zapping my energy more and more over the past few years. Allopathic doctors can't find anything wrong with me, and TCM practitioners basically tell me I'm a mess but haven't been able to help. 
Over the past few days the morning sickness has been getting worse- it has gone from waves of nausea all day to actually throwing up several times a day, and I can barely get out of bed. 
I'm so tired of being tired and now even more so.... 😔 I don't really have anyone to talk to about it and as I mentioned my SO is only in town on the weekends so I'm having to deal with this pretty much on my own most of the time.