Depression because of C Section...

That's a big silent killer... I am 3 days post,
I am home. But the part where I am here sitting up early in the morning balling my eyes out because I am in so much pain, feeling helpless and feel like I can't be the best mother but also my boobs are killing me. I feel like I've been hit by a bus, I thought living with my parents for a little bit might of helped but now I feel a burden. I can't get comfortable or get in and out of bed without crying.
I see my midwife today, I just wanted to vent somewhere.