When my son was born 5 months ago I had every intention of breastfeeding. I started out breastfeeding and he latched perfectly. It took some work because he had a traumatic labor and birth so he just wanted to sleep all the time. He stopped latching once we got home so I started exclusively pumping. When he was about 2 weeks old I stopped producing breast milk. It broke my heart. I wanted that bonding experience and I wanted him to have the healthiest food possible. We started him on formula and saved the last of my stored breast milk for when he got a cold or got his shots. He's been on formula ever since and he's growing and happy. He's 5 months old and is 27 inches long and wearing 9 month clothing. We have an amazing bond and he is a momma's boy! To this day we have no idea why I randomly stopped producing. Maybe it was the stress of me going back to work (which lasted 3 weeks, I'm a SAHM now) or maybe it was the pressure from my MIL to breastfeed or maybe it was my lack of appetite due to being so tired and in pain from delivery. We just don't know. It hasn't bothered me much since I came to terms with it, until tonight. I keep seeing videos and articles of moms breastfeeding. I keep wondering that maybe I should have tried harder or maybe I should have tried to start back up after I quit my job. I know my son is healthy and happy and that's what matters but he's my only baby and will only be my only one so I really wanted to have that breastfeeding experience. I know that not all moms can breastfeed but I feel like I could have tried harder. Sorry for the long post. Just really needed to vent. Baby boy turned 5 months old today so I'm a bit emotional about many things