heart broken 💔

Lauren
Iv had so many tests this year to look for any problems with TTC. My mum had endometriosis and my sister has pcos. I had all the tests and all came back clear. My last test was an internal ultrasound around 3 weeks ago. All normal. I got my first positive yesterday, it was faint but it was there. I started to bleed yesterday afternoon so I was sent straight for bloods. The midwife rang this morning and my baby didn't stick. I'm so heartbroken. One minute I think it's ok, try again, and the next I just cry. The thought of Christmas Day is even making me sad. I know no one can help but I need to vent because there's absolutely nothing I can do 😔