I don't know how to feel

After having my son (he's 11 days old) I feel like everything was so rushed from the moment I went into labor everything went by so fast and now I don't really know how to feel I mean I love my son more then life itself but I feel disconnected and I'm alway at home alone and I feel so isolated and I have friends that could come hang out with me while my boyfriend is at work but they aren't comfortable enough around him so I can't go take a shower or have quick me time with them here and I have my parents who I trust him with but they live almost a hour away and his mom has to much going on that I don't want to even ask.... I just feel like I'm loosing it and going crazy, and I don't know what to do I'm a huge hormonal mess I just wish my boyfriend could've actually got a parental leave that wasn't a joke :/ I know this post had just been me whining and complaining.....I just need to get how I feel off my chest.

One of the many things they don't tell you about pregnancy and having a child