I hate my husband.

2 years ago my husbands boss told him he would help him get his old truck with his credit, I told him many many times not to get it. The payments were going to be 480 a month for 6 years for a single cab. We were ttc and planning to get married in the next couple of months, we didn't need that huge amount of payment on a truck we wouldn't be able to use once we did conceive or use it for more than one child. Anyway, he got it. Eveything was ok till we kept ttc and I finally got pregnant 2016, I kept telling him to trade it in or do something about it because I didn't want my child on there for safety reasons plus the truck is lifted and we wouldn't be able to afford it. He didn't listen, again. Now my son is 3 months, I've been using my maternity clothes since giving birth and it's huge compared to me. I'm a size small. We used the money I had saved for a car to pay for my sons things and now barely have enough to buy my son diapers. Lucky for us my parents took us in and are paying for our grociers and are helping alot but I'm just so tired and embarrassed with them because we've been here almost a year and haven't been able to help them which they completely understand. He refuses to trade in his dumb truck we're so broke we can't even buy our son his first christmas gift yet or even get him a simple picture with Santa. I'm so broken I haven't been able to find a job this truck situation is taking over all our money I've talked to him so many times And he refuses to let go of the damn truck. I want to give up so bad sometimes I have no idea what to do anymore my hair has been falling off in huge chunks and doctor said it's stress. I'm so broken and I can't be I need to be here for my son