MY JOURNEY DOESN'T HAVE A HAPPY ENDING 😢

I Really stopped actively trying to have

A baby the month before last. And said whatever happens happen. But when this month came and I decided to check my calendar. And realized I baby danced on all my fertile days this month except for the last. I got a Lil excited. Still not too excited. Because I knew I still had two weeks to wait before I would even know and then that's not even a guarantee. But my two weeks came and went. I got excited again because day one of AF she didn't show up. I said this is good. But in my mind still thinking she could play so many evil games so I calmed down a Lil. Day two turn into week two. I really got excited as I have never been later than two days ever. But I was having a problem. Every test was negative. So I got sad and discouraged again. Thinking she was just gonna be really late this month. Until I reached a day past two weeks late. On day fifteen I started spotting so I said Britny it could be AF coming thru. But the spotting never got heavy. And after four hours it never showed again. Back to getting excited. But still all negatives on the hpt. So I said to myself. Well if that was implantation on the fifteenth then I am definitely testing too early. So I waited a whole nother week. Before I test. And on day twenty four (today) I took three more test one being a digital. And still no positive. So u see my story doesn't have a happy ending. I didn't get my Christmas miracle. Instead I got another heartbreak. I feel like I'm less of a woman. I even have some symptoms which now makes me think I'm extra crazy. I just needed to vent. And I thank each and everyone for taking the time to read this RANT. 😢😢😢😢

Merry Christmas to all

Update/edit

I am going to seek professional help. Meaning my doctor. I know u guys have no explanations for me. I just need to vent. Thanks again. 💜💜💜