Advice

I normally don't post my business or anything cause its TMI lol but I need some good ass advice foreal BUT anyways let's begin my story ! So I met this guy back in the summer it was either in June or July we actually started off as friends but at that time he liked me so he didn't know how to tell but at the same time I didn't know I just wanted a friend at the time someone I I can talk to bout my problems stuff like that so around this month he decided to tell me that he like me I mean I was surprised cause I didn't know fr I just see him as a friend still bit anyway I was thinking maybe I'll give it a shot so I did so um we talked like mostly everyday about everything our convos was on point and I actually liked it cause I never clocked with someone so fast and we like the same thing but anyway yesterday was the FIRST TIME ever meeting him in person he actually looked the same so that was a plus so um we was talking and talking soooooooo a couple of hrs passing I'm sitting watching TV so I'm like idk what to idk if I should still let him stay or just kick his ass out lol he kept falling asleep so I told him to get up cause I wanted him to talk to me soooo next thing you know ........... We started kissing back in my mind I'm like wtf why am I doing this but my body is like you need this REMIND you yesterday was my first time having sex I didn't want to do I swear cause every guy I fuckin meet that always happens so skip everything I told him I can do this I cant he telling me no don't stop it was so right and I said no I didn't want this to happen then he goin say don't worry I'm not gonna look arbyou different this always happens with every girl I meet then thats when I really didn't want to do that anymore then outta nowhere i started crying cause I get tired of it meeting someone then there in my pants 😞 so I don't want to deal with him anymore cause of that ONE THING blew me off and did I mention we didn't have a date yet idk how I'm gonna break it to him cause he's a sweet guy but he can't handle heartbreaks ... So I need some advice lol and plus he wants a relationship I'm not ready to be committed to anyone cause the last relationship was terrible ...