So in may I started my first job and I met this boy. At first I just saw him as a coworker. ( this part is kinda weird ) One day he showed me this sore he had in his mouth and after that I felt like I had a connection with him like ok were friends I have conversations with you. So we would talk when we weren't busy and he's really funny and over time I started to develop feels for him but I tired to hide it because we were coworkers. When he put in his 2 week notice I took thoes two weeks trying to figure out do I tell him how I feel because there were rumors that this other girl who worked there liked him to. So two weeks later he quit and that night I told him how I felt and his words were Oh I didn't know you felt that way. I was hurt but then I was like Ok we can he friends because I'll never see you again I'm good.... Well I was wrong he worked there 2 more weeks and him knowing that I liked him I guess I made it weird but we would talk about how this customer would always kiss me and he would get in my face and be like do you want me to kiss you and I would get all nervous and walk away. But after the 2 weeks he didn't come back and we texted every now and then and it was all good I liked him and he still didn't like me but in October I just gave up and I told him my feels for you keep growing and I can't just be friends and I told him that because I thought he liked me because he would flirt with me.... ( you know the kiss marry destroy thing... Well I told him I would destroy him and he said I would kiss you only because I know you would like it ) so for a second time I said do you like me or just see me as a friend and he said I only see you as a friend and that night I cried and cried because I thought maybe this time he liked me but I was wrong. And I stopped talking to him because I couldn't deal with him playing with my emotions like that anymore and it took him 2 weeks to text me and I didn't text him and he text me the next day with a confused emoji but I had my heart set on not talking to him but then I also had my heart on not letting him out my life so I texted him back and acted like nothing happened and in November during Thanksgiving break I called him and I was like on the third ring I'll hang up because I didn't expect him to answer and he picked up on the second ring and I freaked out and I lied and said I butt dialed him and we talked for an hour until he fell asleep and then the next night we talked on the phone and then again the next night. Then we would go back to texting and then some stuff went down with me and my dad and he called me and we talked about it. And having the late night talks with him are amazing and I'm glad that day I called him... Then I asked him to come up to my job and he did and we had a "date" and when he left I cried but they were happy tears. Then I get so anxious for him to text me back and when I hear his ringtone my face lights up and we had another "date" and once again I cried but I am just scared because I don't know how he feels about me and I feel like him falling hard for him but I don't want to get hurt again if he doesn't like me.